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What we do when we have stopped
First, yes, I am okay. I am still in limbo with regards to finding an oncologist, having a cursory ultrasound of my internal organs, and undergoing CA125 testing (status of blood work requisition: lost), but there's been nothing to indicate that I should be concerned about my innards (touch wood) so for the meantime this limbo is merely a hypothetical mosquito rather than a hypothetical broken foot in the world of Things Which Bother Me.
At last update, I mentioned that I was leaving for Rae's wedding. A couple campsites, many hours of driving, too many greasy spoon breakfasts, and one runin with the Tennessee State Police and their fine narcotics dogs later, I arrived (with BF Margot) one minute after the ceremony began. Did I tell you that this was the first time we met? She was stunning and lovely and friendly and funny and so many other things that there are adjectives missing from the English language to describe her. I felt like we'd already met and it had just been a long time since we'd last seen one another, that's how comfortable it was. In fact, Margot laughed at us for a conversation that went something like this:
Rae: My aunt and uncle who I've never met drove all the way up from Florida for my wedding, isn't that weird? My mom hasn't even seen them for at least five years.
Louise: Yeah, that's really strange. I mean, what compelled them to come all that way to your wedding when they've never even met you?
Margot: Um, guys? Do you realize what you're saying?
It took me a moment to figure out what was so strange about our conversation.
So the wedding was nice, and Rae taught us a game popular in Cincinnati, and I realized that for the first time since meeting Spike in the summer of 2005, I was knowingly with another cancer survivor. (I'm not counting times spent with other patients/survivors in hospitals and doctor's offices.) And it occurred to me I really miss having a support group.
There are about 76 different things in my life at this moment that are affected by my cancer/diagnosis/survival, and I have no idea how to address them. Having spent more than a year without a cancer network (healthwise) and more than two years without a cancer support group (other than online), I've lost my sense of where to find help. I know I should push my doctor to get me an appointment with an oncologist any oncologist! but true to the first law of motion, I have a tendency to resist changes in my state of motion (current status of rate of motion: at rest).
I can't do this without face to face support anymore. I try things to make myself used to this current state of aftermath,[url=http://nikefreetilbud.hcslnet.com]nike free[/url], survivorship, whatever you'd like to call it, but nothing works. I feel like I'm doing the same things over and over again without results. I try to get over my embarrassment of having had cancer by simply saying it to people all the time, but it doesn't get easier. I feel awkward and apologetic every time, and when people after hearing I've had cancer ask the inevitable But you're okay now, right? I stammer and stumble with my answer. Yeah, I say, I mean, I guess so, physically I think I'm okay, my doctors seem to think I have a good chance of it never coming back but . . . and I trail off. Some people ask how I dealt with it, and my answer is usually not well, and they look a bit shocked and sorry (sorry they asked? sorry for me? both?) and I ha ha, well I'm used to it now, pretty much used to it, you know, it's just, you can't do anything about it so why . . . you know, be angry, but I still get angry, a lot, but . . .
This is usually the part where the person I'm talking to has to a) go to the bathroom, b) pick up their kids, c) find their friend, or d) get a beer (however it plays out, it is an exeunt) and the part where I wonder how it is that I can do the same thing over and over and over again without getting better at it. If talking about cancer was like riding a bike, someone would surely have suggested I just stick to walking by now.
I contacted the Gilda's Club here in Toronto since I've had good experiences with them in the past and there was supposed to be a YA patient/survivor support group, but it was cancelled because no one signed up. Which leads me to suspect that there are few young adult cancer survivors, or that most of them have their shit together and don't need support groups, or that most of them are like me and find talking about cancer so difficult that they'd rather not do it at all, no thank you, not even with other young cancer survivors, this will not happen, thanks again, but no.
So nice to hear from you. I could not agree more with your struggles in how to relate the idea of the cancer, now, in the aftermath to others. I struggle as well, and I am not sure at what point that gets easier. My answer to "but you OK now right?" is usually "I guess you could say that but I am not going to jinx myself my saying it." I too think about going to a survivorship meeting, there is a great organization in NY (not sure if it national) It SHARE (it for breast and ovarian) and they have "young adult survivor groups." And I have been saying I will go, but rationalize that communiting into the city after a day of work is too much, always gets in the way. I hope you find the support you are looking for in the way that it is needed. Remember, I here. And I want details on Rae wedding!
Finding a connection is so important. I have not attended a support group because it is so rare to meet other younger people who have had cancer. While I may not be as young as you, I still had my diagnosis young and at a higher risk age. We have to deal with dating, fertility, early menopause, and this cloud of cancer hanging over us for a very long time (if we are lucky). When you find someone with whom you connect, who truly understands all that, it like a mini lifeline for just that moment. I am glad I have met all the internets to keep me going, but I agree, it is time for me, too, to find some facetoface connections.
Thinking of you and sending you hugs.
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Shenyang and Dalian, capital and port city of northeast China's Liaoning Province, respectively, launched 72-hour visa-free stays for foreigners starting on January 1, authorities said Wednesday.
To enjoy the policy, travelers should hold a valid passport, third country visas and plane tickets leaving for a third country or region within 72 hours, according to the public security bureaus of both cities.
The 51 countries include the United States, Australia, Republic of Korea, Japan, Singapore, France, Germany, Russia and the United Kingdom, which are among the most common origin countries for inbound tourist arrivals to China.
Foreigners who enjoy the visa-free policy can stay within the two cities after arriving at the Shenyang Taoxian International Airport or Dalian Zhoushuizi International Airport.
However, foreigners should also apply for a Chinese visa if they are faced with unexpected circumstances or special events causing them to stay in the two cities for over 72 hours.

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in addition to economic and environmental benefits, natural gas easily in the engine and air mixing, combustion more complete.
some questions about the "oil to gas"
in order to further understanding of the relevant circumstances, the reporter consulted the Jinzhou with a modified ability of filling station. According to the staff of the taxi, "oil to gas" two years ago had, over a period of time is relatively concentrated. From a technical point of view, "oil to gas" is not complex, but the pressure regulating valve, cylinder, gas facilities to increase near the fuel pipe of the original,[link widoczny dla zalogowanych], is equal to the increase of a gas passage, then assemble a liquefied gas tank, was not associated with the original circuit,[link widoczny dla zalogowanych], generally speaking, half a day can be completed, the modification cost is 2000 yuan, after the modification and additional charges.
in order to confirm whether it is true, a reporter with the Jinzhou part of the taxi company made contact. According to Qiu manager Jincheng taxi company introduction, company's existing taxi 800 cars, has about 30% vehicles into the burning gas. From the models, in addition to Xiali changed less,[link widoczny dla zalogowanych], including the Jetta, Santana, Fukang other, Chollima models have many changed. According to the Jinzhou small taxi company field manager,[link widoczny dla zalogowanych], the company's existing taxi 640 cars, a conservative estimate has changed also has dozens of cars, from cars, Citroen,[link widoczny dla zalogowanych], Chery changed so much, Xiali, antelope, Jetta to less.
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at the same time, the two companies are emphasized: taxi "oil to gas" belongs to the owners of personal behavior, has nothing to do with the company. Not through the company before, after the company also did not put on record, therefore, there is no accurate statistics on the number of.
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Shenyang and Dalian, capital and port city of northeast China's Liaoning Province, respectively, launched 72-hour visa-free stays for foreigners starting on January 1, authorities said Wednesday.
To enjoy the policy, travelers should hold a valid passport, third country visas and plane tickets leaving for a third country or region within 72 hours, according to the public security bureaus of both cities.
The 51 countries include the United States, Australia, Republic of Korea, Japan, Singapore, France, Germany, Russia and the United Kingdom, which are among the most common origin countries for inbound tourist arrivals to China.
Foreigners who enjoy the visa-free policy can stay within the two cities after arriving at the Shenyang Taoxian International Airport or Dalian Zhoushuizi International Airport.
However, foreigners should also apply for a Chinese visa if they are faced with unexpected circumstances or special events causing them to stay in the two cities for over 72 hours.

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JERUSALEM, Jan. 14 (Xinhua) -- Israeli politicians scrambled to do damage control on Tuesday, following harsh statements attributed to Defense Minister Moshe Ya'alon regarding U.S. Secretary of State John Kerry's performance on Tuesday.
Israel's Yedioth Aharonot daily published on Tuesday comments attributed to hawkish Ya'alon, who said that Kerry should "get a Nobel Prize and leave us (Israel) alone."
The defense minister reportedly complained ahead of one of Kerry's ten trips to the region since July of last year that there were no negotiations between Israel and the Palestinians in the past month, but between Israel and the Americans.
Ya'alon, who headed the Israeli army's West Bank Division and Central Command during the second Palestinian intifada, has also slammed a U.S.-devised security provisions for an Israeli pullout from the West Bank if a peace deal is established, reportedly saying that it is "not worth the paper it's written on."